What if Judas never killed himself? + Pic updates

Gallery updates and such from my Instagram posts! I still have more to do though, lol.


“What if Judas never killed himself?”

I wonder: would he have repented– let his godly sorrow take over– and attempted to join their other apostles again? Would they have forgiven and accept him back?

If they (eventually) trusted someone like Paul/Saul, Judas would have stood a chance too… Right?

I wonder what kind of an apostle he’d be. He’d be known as the man who actually put Jesus to death on the cross, by betraying him– his friend. He’d be reminded day after day, and even probably be labeled a hypocrite, as to why he’s preaching about Jesus when he was up close and personal with him, and yet, still didn’t follow him. What else would it really take for someone to love Jesus? Unless he completely repented, he would still feel wordly guilt every day, while reaching out…

However… We all actually put Jesus on the cross. Jesus died for the people like Judas too… He didn’t come/die to help the “good people” (of which there are none). He came to save the halpless sinners, just like you and I– the people who can’t help but to sin even when we want to do good.

Satan entered Judas that night. But he also allowed Satan to control him. Things just had to happen that way, or we wouldn’t be who we are today. We would not have stood a chance at heaven on our own. It was still God’s plan. Judas did still have a chance to repent, however. Unfortunately, he chose the wordly sorrow route and hung himself. But I’m sure God would still had compassion on him, even after he did it (if he truly repented). Jesus even called Judas his friend during all of this.

Jesus would have forgiven Judas… If only he would have forgiven himself.

Jesus died for everyone.

15 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. 16 But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.

– 1Ti 1:15-16

3 pics and movies/shows!

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Here’s the pics!

Now about the movies/shows!

I was rather giddy after discovering that “The Magic School Bus” was on netflix now… lol (yes, I loved it as a kid!)
With my niece and nephew, we’ve almost watched the whole series now! Aw… to be a kid again. (It is a bit cornier than I remember, but, hey; it’s still awesome!!… I wonder what happened to their voice actors.actresses?…
P.S. If you ever want to read something very stupid, check out my Magic School Bus story/comic XDDD “Ten Years Later”, LOL.
One of my first fandoms, as you can see… ._. (my other was Pokémon, in middle school… :^o )
I still ship Mr. Seedplot and Ms. Frizzle. 😮 Oh yeah, bby. (LOL… moving on.)

Just started watching the “Boys Over Flowers” Korean Drama… It’s… interesting… I’m glad they included the ‘important parts’ to the story, but they sure did change a lot… Guess I’m comparing it to the manga too much?… I can hardly compare it to the Japanese drama since it’s been forever since I’ve seen it… but yeah. 😮 lol.

I also saw “The Prince of Egypt” recently! It was really good! Why didn’t you guys warn me on how emotional it was? (/hicsob) lol, well, despite the historical/Biblical inaccuracies… it was still pretty good!! I cried a bunch of times, but not at the end…XD Hmm…

Another movie I saw was the TLC movie… I do love TLC! ._. It was very sad… another movie I was an emotional mess over… I also ordered the Left-Eye DVD about her journeys in Honduras. Gah, I’m gonna definitely cry when I watch that too… D:

Oh, besides watching stuff, I’ve also drawn a bunch too XD But I can’t show ya, of course… (at least, not right now…) They’re for The Hawaii Star Manga Project… Which is supposed to come out sometime in 2014!… But I’m trying to get a head start XD (Don’t wanna overwhelm myself too much.) Plus, I have a lot more giftarts, commissions and fanmangas to get to finishing!
I’m wondering if I should redo one of my old comics again?… Maybe the NKTR prelude thingie? (But how many times have I rewritten it already? =_= lol (lots of times.) Anyways…. that’s another story, lols.)

I think that’s all, so far. =_= lol… (Worth mentioning, at least) Catch ya laters! 🙂

Toran pic + Some thoughts on creativity and work


This is from “My Sweet Indulgence”– the poster that’s on Teri’s wall. XD Super-old (again), so it’s in the 2008 category. 🙂

You know, I’ve realized that simply thinking about the work, mulling over about the work, and planning the time to do the work is NOT the same as actually DOING the work. I’m talking about drawing out my comics for me. I can feel like I’m making so much progress inwards, and thinking that I have so many great ideas (how egotistical of me?), but if they don’t come out, what’s the big deal about them? Are they really that good? How will my words and pictures impact people if they never come out?? After all, anyone can have an idea about almost anything, but it’s the fruition– the actual application and bringing it out into the world as how you imagined it– which is the absolute, hardest part. Why do you think people/artist have to practice for years and years and writers have to go through so many stories and drafts to get better and better? It takes a lot of work. Not imagined work. Not dreamed work. But WORK-work, lol.

So, dreaming about what you want to draw (this is me talking to myself here too) is only the start. The motivation and inspiration needs to take care of the rest, initiate the process, and actually let/make you work on it to bring it forth!

We have to train our minds to think like our spirits, do. I feel our intuition and our spirits know what we want (in our imaginations– when it’s working correctly, that is), but we have to train our bodies and minds to comply. It’s really hard! (P.S. When I say ‘working correctly’, I mean when our imaginations are ‘going wild’ in the positive, creative way; not in the sheltered, fearful, paranoid way…!) Even in the spiritual aspect, training your mind to think more purely like God is the absolute hardest thing, in and of itself. (For me, that’s very hard, too!) We may never get out exactly what we want to do– in our hearts and in our spirits and minds, not even physically– but we can always do our best and just try, try and try again!! 🙂

I’m trying to do a lot of cleaning out in terms of my files (images/pictures/drawings). Being a bit more organized, I want to develop more concrete plans for getting my comics/stories out there. It doesn’t mean anything if you’ve got a dozen great ideas that are just fuzzy memories, and no concrete stories to go with them! (At least, that’s how it feels to me.) Maybe I’ll make more ebooks or self-published materials… We’ll see.

Also, is anyone else excited & psyched for the new Manga Studio 5?!? Looks like we’ll finally be able to color in a Photoshop/Paint Tool Sai-like way! I hope they have more screentones, too… Guess I’ll need to upgrade my Manga Studio EX 4 soon… but I’ll probably wait till they make Manga Studio EX 5 this summer.

Finally done with my submission!!

PHEW! I’m finally done submitting my comic for the contest I was entering in Japan… I hope it went through okay… I hope they like it!! And well… if they don’t, at least I can say that I tried my best… But I will keep hoping/praying that they do, LOL. Anywho, that has been my life for the past couple of months! The story is called “Baggage”, btw… We’ll see what comes of it (if anything).

I’m thinking of submitting the old version of the prelude… but it’s not really ‘finished’, which is why I was redoing/redrawing it in the first place. But… I think it’s kind of cool to see ‘old art’ (as long as there are no spoilers, lol). And well… this really wouldn’t be spoilers, would it? I might change some things… the layout, maybe bits of the story I didn’t like; but in that case, maybe it’s best to just wait until I give you the new version first…?

For example, here’s the ‘character page’, lol:


But I’m not sure yet. I don’t want me releasing the old pages fizzling out my desire to redraw them!… We’ll see.

In other news, I’ve downloaded a video game called “Silver” from Gog.com. (They sell lots of old games; it’s pretty cool.) I have yet to play it since I’d been doing that comic all along, orz… but now, it’s on like Donkey Kong! :3 lol