“Rejection is Inevitable” and 12+ hours of reading Hana Yori Dango @_@


Just some coloring practice! ๐Ÿ™‚

So, I’ve stayed up just about 24+ hours now… the first part was spent drawing and eating, and the second (like 5:00am-6pm– that’s an estimate… I really don’t remember how long it was, OTL…) was spent re-reading Hana Yori Dango/ Boys Over Flowers vol. 23-36 (the end). …I really need a bigger bookcase (but I just ‘inherited’ one from a friend! Arggg!) Technically… I went to bed at like 6:30 pm last night, and took a three-hour nap, and woke up at 9pm-something… I’m strange…

Anyway, while reading it (that super-addictive, but really good manga), I realized something:

If I were Japanese, I’d probably be bald by now.

Why is this? Cutting your hair is a symbol of having a fresh beginning from unrequited love/rejection or heartbreak.
Though, I know it isn’t simply a Japanese/”Asian” custom to do this, it is usually found in mangas a lot… and I’d always been told NOT to cut my hair (though I’ve thought about it often.) It would make it more manageable for sure.

Regardless, if I did believe in that, the amount of times that I would need a ‘fresh start’ from rejection would be many. However, while reading the manga over– and thinking over some things the past month-ish– I realize that rejection is inevitable, and possibly necessary for getting what you really want. I was talking to a friend last week; she wants to publish a book that she wrote (super-long… very research-based, but still fiction). She’d been working on it years and years since 2003, and finally got it done recently… but now, she is getting “Cold Feet”, you might say, about sending it to publishers. And, me– who’s been rejected dozens of times from unrequited love, to comic submissions, to other jobs/interviews, to friendship/social circles, etc.– finally thought that I could help encourage someone with all of my “rejection experience.” I think I did cheer her up though! But, it’s up to her now… I will keep cheering her on though.

I just wanted to say to everyone (who actually reads this), that I’ve found that it really is a necessary step in reaching your dreams. Now, sometimes “getting what you want” doesn’t always mean that you’re guaranteed to be happy. Happiness comes from within, not from being “successful”. But, for those of you who DO feel like you were put on this earth to fulfill a dream that will help others, you should go for it! Continue to do it until your fingers/brain/ears bleed (or whatever you use for your talents/dreams)!! Sometimes, I think maybe God is testing us to see how much we want something. But even if it’s not a test, if it’s important to you, you shouldn’t just give it up so quickly/easily!! If you love doing it, then go for it!

I realize that there are 7,000,000,000+ people in this world right now… each with their own dreams and aspirations… maybe there are hundreds of thousands wanting to get a “job” or pursuing a dream just like yours. But you are the only one able to write your own unique story… in my case, there are mannnyyyyy people who can draw and write better than I can (comics-wise)… but… that doesn’t mean that I should give up, should it? There has to be someone out there who will be able to learn and be happy and appreciate what I wrote/drew, right? I’m the only one that can tell my stories my way, and the same goes for you too.

Of course… we can’t control people’s reactions to our creations; we can only make them and hope for the best. Just try your best so that you’ll have no regrets! And make it for yourself (and God) first (if you don’t like it, how can you expect others to like it?); make it to help others, secondly. People-pleasing is the first step to failure, because you are listening to others’ dreams for you and not following your own heart or direction. Helping others doesn’t have to turn into people-pleasing though (help people to help God); sometimes you just have to be honest about certain situations for the sake of truth (but in a kind, gentle, loving way).

But you know… all of the rejection CAN be disheartening after a while… I still don’t know why I keep on trying. But what is the alternative? To lay down and die? To wait until I croak? I have to do something! So, I just wanted to say… don’t let the fear stop you! I’d like to think there is a ‘right’ (not perfect) husband and job there for me… but there are some things you just can’t force. We never get there totally on our own power, anyway. God will choose when is the best time for everything… just keep trusting and keep trying. Show them that Tsukushi Makino weed-strength!! (Read HYD to find out more xD;)


Rainbow Kisses– Orieal and Co.



Also on DA:

“Well, there’s more than Orieal, actually! lol (She’s just in the front, that’s all.)
These are characters from my Nekoturr’s Realm story… and actually… I’ve been work on this pic off and on for like 3 years (well, Dec. 2010)! I’m just trying to finish up some half-done things around here, is all…
Hope you like it! (And my 80’s color scheme! lols)

From left-to-right: Orieal, Cara (bg), Nikolao (bg)
Then top-to-bottom on right: Rukii, Trevor, and Marihara

Genesis 9:12-16
“12 And God said, โ€œThis is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come: 13 I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. 14 Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, 15 I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. 16 Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.โ€”

Alan, Lila and Stinky- HA! fanart


Also on DA:
“This is for the OpRuth team for promotional purposes. :)
(Why is Stinky wearing a lemon-pudding version of Vivienne Westwood?… ‘Cause I made him, that’s why. OTL)
P.S. Manga Studio EX 5 is awesome!! (I colored Lila and Stinky using it. ^^)”

Arnie and Arnold sketch (my style) — Hey Arnold!

Also on DA:
“Just thought I’d try out…
It’s summertime; they’re both eating popsicles, and Arnie’s looking at his own version of a locket, with Helga’s picture in it. XD Meanwhile, Arnold’s like, ‘What the heck are you doing, man?’…
((But maybe he’s secretly jealous…))

Karina sketch pic; also, Happy Father’s Day!!


Karina sketch!

Actually, I need to work on A LOT more things, and I’m frankly sick of having so many unfinished stories!! I have to work on them one at a time…ย  have to do more –not only– concept arts and sketches but scripts and actual full summaries too. It won’t mean anything if I make a million ‘ideas’, and never get any out to publishers as actual, full stories, what does it all mean? What was that all for then?? Anyhow, just have to discipline myself better. XD
Hope you didn’t mind my brain-‘splosion. >_> (That’s essentially what it was… lol.)

I also just realized that I can’t ink (properly… with fun included, lol) digitally XD. I can color all right on it, but being so accurate on it makes… er… my hands and eyes hurt, lol. I just can’t get the same kind of technique as I can while drawing physically…. oh well. I really tried on that Karina pic XD. Well, I think it’s okay in increments or not-as-detailed pics, but yeah… that’s just me, though! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
(Though, it would save me so much paper if I could do it all digitally T_T lol, haha…)

On another note, I want Manga Studio 5 EX already! :U


Jesus painting


I did this for our Singles’ Ministry leader and his wife who are leaving for Jamaica. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ They seemed to really like it! But it was kind of a rush job (did it in like 3-4 hours or so), but I think it’s okay considering where it started, LOL (it was REALLY shoddy, lolz). Done in acrylics! (Well, mostly… first, I tried it in what I thought were “pastels”, but turned out to be more like crayons -_- LOL, again… shoddy.)

It’s kind of a combination of these two pics: http://missionventureministries.files.wordpress.com/2011/01/9-jesus-praying-web.jpg

Pepper Ann- Much Too Cool for 7th Grade (my style)


Here’s the Pepper Ann fanart that I promised!

Description from DA:

“Yeahhhh!! So, I’ve been on a major Pepper Ann kick within the last week, and boy, has it hit me hard! It’s probably one of my fav American cartoons next to Hey Arnold!. But it will never take that #1 spot that HA! has in my heart, haha ๐Ÿ˜› It’s still majorly good though, despite that my ship of Pepper Ann/Milo is a tragic, star-crossed and ill-fated one, LOL. …And for some reason, I kept hearing “Don’t Let Go” by En Vogue during random times in thinking about/drawing the show/ this pic! lol (No… I’m not unconsciously/subliminally shipping anyone; nosiree!)

It’s not on DVD yet (unfortunately…), but you can find them on Youtube.

My fav eps (so far; I haven’t re-watched the whole series yet):
“In Support Of”, “T.G.I.F.”, “A Valentine’s Day Tune”, “Manly Milo”, “Megablades of Grass”, “Complimentary Colors, “Unicycle of Life” and “You Oughta Be In Musicals!”
(That’s a lot, huh? lol, well, all of them are good!)

Anyways, go watch it! โค
Also, I’m a total dork, because I bought Kathleen Wilhoite’s CD (the voice actress for Pepper Ann) because it sounds like P.A. is singing it herself, rofls (but she can sing good too! lol)!…… *totaldorkbutIdon’tcare* ๐Ÿ˜€ :)”