Hey Arnold! returns! + personal goal stuff!

Yo, peoples! It’s been a while. (My blog/journal seems to always have these large gaps in the middle of posting, lol.) Sry. Real life, ya know. Anyways.

Life lately has been strange. A strange mix of events.

For the good news (if you haven’t already heard): Hey Arnold! is returning to Nickelodeon!!
http://variety.com/2015/tv/news/hey-arnold-tv-movie-nickelodeon-reviving-shows-1201646666
Whooohoooo!!! (<–Honestly, this doesn’t fully express my excitement, because I’ve known about this for a while now, and have expressed it more fully in other places, lol.)
But what great news!! This was a group effort though. All of the fans, Craig, Nick, etc. After all of our hard work campaigning, and getting Nick’s attention… buying all of the merch that we could… finally… (It’s coming back as a T.V. movie for now (TJM!!), but maybe we’ll get another season or series if we’re patient and nice. 🙂 (And if the movie does well in ratings/sales…)
Just goes to show you that you shouldn’t give up on something, if it’s something that you really want! Anything can happen! :)…

Which comes to my next problem. My personal art goals are all over the place, man. The TJM news is very inspiring, sure. It’s helped to bring me back into my writing/drawing mood. I’ve felt– for a long while– that I’ve just been doing stuff “for work” and not for me… bu that’s not how my art began as, you know? It later turned into just pleasing others via commissions or with companies. Sure, in order to have a job in art (or anything), you have to serve. But shouldn’t there be a balance if it’s your personal way of expression too? I’ve felt like I’ve given up multiple times on myself…
Although I used to blatantly tell myself that I would rather commit suicide than to give up on my dreams… well, after realizing that killing yourself would be sending you straight to hell, I opted out of that, but… I had already been dead, and been “killed”/ given up on the inside. That’s… just as bad, imo. Having no motivation, just living until you die. What kind of a life is that?

Secondly, I also want to honor God with my art/comics/stories. But just having a heck of a time in figuring out how. The way things are currently going… well… it just seems that things are going veryyyy slow. I have many stories in my head, but there’s no way that I’ll be able to finish them all if things continue like the way they are now. I just need to do something… different… I don’t know what that looks like yet. But I’ll figure it out, hopefully.

Thirdly, I just feel a sense of overwhelming guilt in not finishing my fancomic, Trunks’ Date. I really don’t feel the motivation to finish it (right now, at least). But I just feel guilty about it. Is that a good, bad or neutral thing? Other comic/art professionals I’ve talked to have told me that I shouldn’t do it anymore. I do understand their position. I feel guilty for giving it up, since it’s gone on for so long, and I want to move on to my personal, original art/stories more, but… maybe there’s an off-chance that I could go back to finish it once I get my original art-life in order more?

I am just out of balance, in general.

But such is life in figuring out how to live. Also, just trying to be more grateful for my friends and family– because you never know what might happen tomorrow. I want to prepare my soul for death, even if that does seem a bit morbid. but really, that’s just reality. You never know…
I’ve seen too many deaths happen this year– either to people I’ve worked with, knew offhandedly, or knew of friends’ relatives who have passed away. Sometimes suddenly, sometimes they knew it beforehand. But, the result is still the same: it just made me realize how short our lives can be, and how much we (I) take it for granted, sometimes. I want to live with no regrets. I also want to die with no regrets. I just have to continually ask myself (and really see this as my reality)– what would I like to accomplish if today/tomorrow/a week from now was my last day? What would be more important for me?

It’s not even having money, or being ‘successful’ which would be most important; but the depth in how much you loved others, your relationships, is what I think will be all that matters in the end. (My relationship with God is number one, and then my relationships with others, afterward.) How much did I love others, and honor/love God in doing so? So, instead of being in a defaultly selfish mode (as per the usual), I have these things to figure out. Because– as stated before– you just never know.
On my death bed, I would like to think that I “did my best.” But I have a long way to go.

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Realism pics update

Hello! Well… I’ve had a pretty “interesting” week; full of ups and downs, but trying to currently focus on the ‘ups’ more…
P.S. Did you know that in Japan, “Inside Out” (the movie) is called “Inside Head?” haha. Just random info.

Anyway! There’s been some pics added to the Realism and Others category. My website works again on AT&T wifi networks again, yay! (At least… so far, lol.) There are some other updates too, but you can see them on the main site.

I really wanna start some new comics, but I feel that I should finish what I start, concerning my original stuff. The fancomic stuff is… not included in this session; but I haven’t forgotten about them.
Just feeling rather wistful, in general, lately. I shall figure it out later. Ja ne!

Hallo! Been a while! (+Japan trip pics!)

Hey, guys! Okay, so a lot has happened since the last time I updated on here… 🙂

(If you’ve kept up with my Facebook account, then you’re *pretty* much caught up, but…)

1. My website is not working on AT&T networks. I am working on the issue. -_- Didn’t recently know that this was causing the issue, but it seems that every Wifi network which uses AT&T, well… it’s just not working. Or more like, it’s blocked. How many other people’s websites are blocked, I wonder?? My host is atspace.com, so I’m assuming they are doing it because of some other website at atspace which is possibly doing something shady. But to block EVERYone else’s websites because of this? It’s redic. So, I can’t update it until I get it working again… Anyway, number two…

2. I’ve just recently been to Japan!!! It was amazinggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!! I super-wanna go back, someday. It was awesome, I’m telling you!! Maybe I’ll share a couple of pics on here, but most of them are on my personal FB account. XD I mostly stayed in/around the Tokyo area, but I didn’t get to do all of what I wanted, but alas. What I did get to do was super-fun. Maybe that’ll have to be saved for next time. 🙂

3. I’m re-doing the lettering/editing on that “My Sweet Indulgence” story. Almost done! Actually, that first chapter IS done… I just have to post it, haha… Check it out! http://tapastic.com/episode/143338

4. Lime Media Hawaii is beginning to publish my new story, “Mystery of the Black Water” here: http://www.mysteryoftheblackwater.thecomicseries.com/comics/2 (Just a few pages out so far though. More to come later!)

5. What else?? I’m super-excited for the new DBS anime! (Dragonball Super) It’s very interesting, so far. XD Can’t wait till they move past the Beerus stuff though.. but it’s still cool. Excited!
Speaking on DBZ, I haven’t forgotten my fancomic! I’m just so super-busy with other things, art and comic-wise. It’s just hard to find the time for it. Sorry.

I guess that’s it. XD Here’s some piccies from Japan!

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TD 171-172 + DBZ Games

Moooooore!

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Soooo glad that Dragonball Xenoverse is coming out on Steam, as I have no Next-Gen systems (unless you count my nephew and niece’s Wii U, lolz)! Yay!
🙂 🙂 🙂 Between that and buying Majora’s Mask and a 3DS, well… my wallet is not gonna like me very much in February! (But that’s tax return season at least, lol.)
#adultlife #kidspirit

I really wanna know more about Time Patrol Trunks’ role in this whole story. Is it considered canon, I wonder? I never played Dragonball Online, but the idea still sounds intriguing. Can’t wait! (But, will have to xD lol)

Moar (just two) pages + stuff

Hello! Here are two new pages to Trunks’ Date.

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(ノ´﹏`)ノ 彡 lɐuɹnoſ

I apologize for taking so long for any updates with TD, in general (not these past few weeks, but the years before that). I understand that not many people are as interested as they used to be in it, because of the lack of updates… and for that, I apologize. (I don’t blame you.) Regarding that recent poll, you guys really don’t care (well most of you, lol) if it takes me another 15 yrs. to finish the story??

As for the others who just wanted the text version (if I take too long), I at least want to reach a certain point before I think about ending it. Whether I make it all the way to the total end of the comic or not (which, when mapped out, seems to be 16+ chapters), we shall see. I don’t think I would like giving the script to some, and not to others. Too many spoiler opportunities…:P But this has gotten so far along in my head, that it’s like a cancer almost, lol, so I need to get it out, somehow. Hence, why I am writing it all out first. But still, things may change as I draw it, so…

But the same sort of goes for my original works too. I need to get them out, also. And I don’t have much spare time between work-work to do both (at least, consistently). So… We shall see…

I just need to practice, in general, more. XD Whether it be originals or not, lol. (But how will I get better at my own, original stories (and ever be a real pro) if I don’t practice doing them?)

Don’t get me wrong; I would still like to finish it/TD (in drawn/comic form), someday, but if people are just not as interested as they used to be, then what can I do? (???) Now, this doesn’t mean that I ONLY do my stories to please other people– that is what I am actually trying to avoid (being a people-pleaser)– but I WOULD like it if others were to like it… If I can brighten someone’s day or make someone think with my stories/art.

Maybe it is just ME who is not all that interested… I mean, I AM, but, I still need to work on my original comics too… maybe I can do both? It just seems so very heavy to juggle such long projects at once… and I don’t like seeing things, unfinished… (As for “that” one Gh/Vi fanfic I did long ago… don’t think I will complete that one, but *that’s* for other reasons…(other than time, etc… >_> ))

I’m trying to figure out which choice I would regret the least… like if I died tomorrow, which story would I feel the worst at not completing?…

I just don’t know >_>… (Well, I kind of know, but do I have the courage/will to act on it?)

I just feel bad for submitting, and I don’t have time to check out people’s pages like I used to, properly, to thank them, etc., or just because I’m interested to see what they’re doing. DA is kind of… not as big/important to me as it was, in the past… (is it just me?) But it doesn’t mean the people are less important… I just suck at keeping in touch with others. (Facebook/in person is easier. XD) So, the problem is just probably all me XD. I just have to figure out what I am going to do with my incongruent self… -_- (since all of my inner parts are basically disagreeing with one another). Well, that journal kind of came out of nowhere! lol.

Goodnight! 😛 (Gotta try to get over my cold…)