The Death of Today

How would you like to die today?…

Oh, I’m sorry… You weren’t planning on dying today, were you?

Let me rephrase: How are you planning on living during the death of today?

I’m sure you’ve heard that we are never promised tomorrow– or even our next breath.

14 Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
– Jas 4:14

Sure, we may do what we can to prevent a physical death, but have you ever thought about how constantly our days die?

We may try to “make up for it” the next day, what we didn’t do that day, but really… It doesn’t take away the fact that our yesterday is gone & we did not spend our 12,088th day of being alive (for example) to its fullest advantage.

15 Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, 16 making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.
– Ep 5:15-16

Maybe, instead of counting our lives in years, we should count them in days. It may help us to cherish our individual days/ moments more.

I’ll never get back that 12,087th day of being alive…

But, the question we have to ask ourselves is: “Did I die well today?” And, “How do I want to spend my 12,088th day of dying?”

(I feel like if we ask, “Did I live well,” it causes us to think moreso that we will be alive for a personal, predetermined amount of time. However, we never know when what day/moment will be our last, whether it be in 8 minutes, 8 months, 8 years or 80 years.)

A certain martial arts class I was in taught me to think: “Today is a good day to die.” But I want to think of it in a different way: Not as some final time/ date when our spirits leave our physical bodies, but as right now– everyday– since our todays are always passing away.

So… Did we die well?

We are either growing or dying (in all areas of life). Once we reach a certain age (in our twenties), we are no longer officially “growing.” The remainder of our lives is trying to hang on to what we currently have and sustaining it as best as possible. But we are still physically dying. (Mental & spiritual growth are different & still possible, however.)

I’m no expert in telling you how the best way to live/die is. I am still learning too. But I do know that it involves doing our best in the current moments we are given, and to always keep the eternal in the forefront of our minds. Appreciate each day… “Don’t Procrastinate”, is so cliche, so here’s a geeky anime quote instead. 😉

“Don’t put off until tomorrow what you should do today.” (“Follow Your Dream” song, from “Project A-Ko”)

Store up treasures in Heaven than on Earth.

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

– Mt 6:19-21

Don’t put all of your energy/ trust in worldly wealth. It’s all temporary anyway.

20 “But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’

– Lk 12:20

We may not be perfect in doing this, but thank goodness that there is grace. But let’s not take grace for granted too. Let’s not take anything for granted. Even time, itself, is temporary.

Instead, let’s just do our best!

がんばってね! (Ganbatte ne!) ✌️

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Isn’t it funny…

… How we always feel self-righteous, correct and justified in our current behavior? However, when we look back at our past, and get a glimpse at how we thought back then, we can (hopefully) say to some extent, “Wow, what was I thinking back then?” …Even though we felt right and justified at that time, too. But, hopefully, you can see how much you’ve grown and learned from those experiences as well.

Just take it as a possibility that we may also be wrong in our current situations (in how were acting or behaving). In 15 years, what we are doing right now could be a new instance of “What was I thinking?” for our future selves.

Therefore, always be open to learning. Correction and personal evolvement is how we grow.

16 All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, 17 so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

– 2Ti 3:16-17

#latenightthoughts

The Desire to Scratch

~The Spiritual (Video) Game of Life~

~The Spiritual (Video) Game of Life~
 
Level 1: On Sunday, I hit something on my way home and got a flat tire.
Level 2: When I went to go get it fixed this morn (at the closest dealership), there was extra paperwork that needed to be re-done bc my VIN number was inputted wrong in their system. So, I would have to go to the original dealership where I initially got my car, so that they could fix it. It would take 2 hrs. to fix the paperwork.
Level 3: I was unsure of the cost at this point (also, I needed gas). I didn’t have time to go to the other dealership (which is further away) this morn, so I had to wait until after work… then it rained… and there was traffic…
Level 4: What normally would’ve taken a half an hour took an hour and a half. (Plus, I’m still driving on a doughnut, mind you… praying that I don’t die or get into an accident, lol.)
Then, I had to wait like 3 hours after that in order to get everything done. (I was hungry/falling asleep, yo. lol)
 
~But life has a way of evening itself out~
 
Here are the positives of this situation:
 
1. When I initially hit the ‘something’ in the street, it was as I was turning on my street (like, literally, a few houses down), so I didn’t need a tow truck, and didn’t get stranded. (Woot!) 💁
2. I had some nice father-daughter time with my otousan, who helped me to change it, and even taught me how to change it myself… just in case, for a next time! (I finished changing it halfway through, and it wasn’t so hard as I thought it would be.)
3. I had to get my tire replaced (they couldn’t repair it), but it was at no extra cost to me since I already had tire coverage with my lease (so yay)!
4. All of that extra time waiting was well spent in reflection, and doing creative/fun things. (It’s times like this when I’m glad that I bring my laptop/3DSxl with me, lol.) Also, that hour and a half of driving to the dealership was spent listening to an audiobook, and coming to some realizations (which I will share below). Btw, the audiobook was “Facing your Giants” by Max Lucado.
 
~What I learned~
 
I’m starting to look at trials/setbacks as like ‘levels’ (in a video game) to overcome and to beat. And if I’m having difficulty beating the level, then I need to see what God is trying to teach me through them, in order to win and move onto the next challenge. (And maybe there is a calming FMV to watch in between~)
Remember, I’m talking spiritually here. There are some things we can’t control in our earthly lives, in the physical world. But we have (much more, if not all) control over what *we* do and how we learn/think with our minds/spirits.
 
Anyhow…
 
~When it is difficult to beat a level~
 
Maybe we need a ‘power up’ (a boost in energy), or a new weapon to beat the level/boss (some thing or some strategy you haven’t tried yet, or a spiritual weapon/defense you are not using, or didn’t think you had); maybe we just need to gain more experience and ‘level up’ (and learning through repetition… after you keep dying on the same level/part, eventually, you gotta try to figure out what you are doing wrong! lol); or maybe we just need to be humble and read the manual… (the Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth, y’know.)
 
There’s always a way to beat/overcome what you are facing…
 
Do you seem to have troubles controlling your “character” (both types (the physical body and mental/moral character))? Learn the controls… learn how YOU function. There may be a certain set of buttons you didn’t know how to use properly… Or sometimes, it just takes experience ‘playing’ in order to get it (to be second-nature)…
 
Is the game becoming boring to you? Perhaps it is TOO repetitive, and you just need a change… Perhaps your close friend likes it, and you feel a bit weird for not liking it.
Don’t just give up on video games, altogether! You just have to find which genre/game best suits you! 😉 (This is finding what you are good at, passionate about, and what your likes/dislikes are, in life.) What inspires you? You gotta find it! But sometimes the gift may find you too. 🙂
 
All in all, try to find the hope in all situations. Even if the physical reality is very slim to change, you can at least change your mental state for the better. Without hope, how is there even a CHANCE to change anything?…
 
Look for the lesson in how to overcome every setback. And when you DO beat the level/enemy, don’t get too cocky… there is always another challenge ahead! 😉
 
We WILL have troubles in this world (John 16:23), but luckily, we have access to the best game designer who has overcome the world. 🙂
 
~If you *think* you are facing an unbeatable level, remember…~
 
1. As long as you are alive, there is hope in beating it.
2. Look for the lesson– if it is too hard for you, don’t berate yourself for not ‘being good enough’ to overcome the situation. Start small(er), and work/practice from there.
3. Maybe some difficulties aren’t meant to be ‘beaten’ or ‘defeated’. Maybe they are just a ‘thorn’ which God allows us to have (2 Corinthians 12:6-10) in order that we would not become conceited, but lean on Him for our strength.
(1 Cor 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”)
4. If you are able to get into the mind of the game designer, you are more likely to beat the level. (And maybe all of this car stuff happened just so I would be inspired enough to tell you all of this.)
Be transformed by the renewing of your mind (Romans 12:2) (like a Spiritual Super Saiyan!), and become a master at that game, yo! Then, if others have trouble beating it, you will know how to help them… 🙂
 
~LOVE IS AN ACTION VERB!~ ;*

Random Girl, Blood Moon, and SNOW?!

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Oohh, new pic!~ It’s a… random girl for practice, lol. Still need my lines!!

Also, there is supposed to be a blood moon tonight. But, alas, there’s snow and clouds… (maybe it’ll clear up by 3am though).
Speaking of snow: what the heck, weather?!! It was 70 degrees earlier today… -_- But that’s typical for the Midwestern states, lol. Crazy weather…

So, yeah, I’m been trying different styles in my coloring (and drawing a bit too), but I realize that the best person to be/imitate is yourself (and God too, in terms of character). But everyone has their own style, their own “something they’re good at.” We should just focus on building our strengths with that, and not worry about the rest. There is at least one thing that can make us unique or “known for”. either in our art or otherwise. So, just work on finding your “special brand of something!” 🙂

/endsupposedinspirationalrant

A w.i.p. (work-in-progress) and such

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Hey, guys! So… I’ve been ‘gone’ for a while (in terms of internet uploading of my art) because I’ve been:

1. Working on projects that are supposed to be published, so I can’t show them prematurely.
2. Working on W.I.P.’s in terms of story, so there’s nothing much to see anyways.
3. Been really uninspired to finish anything as of late!

Basically, an art/work funk. I hope to get out of it soon though. I’ve been coloring some pages for the HSMP re-release in 2014/The KawaiiKon, so the pic above is a preview of that (it’s actually going to be 4 colored pages though… well, one illustration is not colored on the computer!). Besides that, and a fanart sketch here and there, there’s nothing much I’m motivated to do. ;_; Gah, it’s very annoying being like this! As I’ve said though, I hope to get out of it soon.

I am not a webcomics sort of person (I don’t mind uploading doujinshi’s/fancomics though), because I want to see my original comics in print. I’ve realized that now. I always seem to leave stuff half-done when it’s something I’ve wanted to be in print instead.. or just felt like I wasn’t achieving its intended purpose, somehow. But, I can only try so hard, you know? There’s a point where you have to give up, right? Well, I don’t know it, as of now. This [‘journal’ entry] might not make much sense to you, but this is my own personal battle… creative-wise.

By the way– Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and have a Happy New Year! 🙂 🙂