What if Judas never killed himself? + Pic updates

Gallery updates and such from my Instagram posts! I still have more to do though, lol.

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“What if Judas never killed himself?”

I wonder: would he have repented– let his godly sorrow take over– and attempted to join their other apostles again? Would they have forgiven and accept him back?

If they (eventually) trusted someone like Paul/Saul, Judas would have stood a chance too… Right?

I wonder what kind of an apostle he’d be. He’d be known as the man who actually put Jesus to death on the cross, by betraying him– his friend. He’d be reminded day after day, and even probably be labeled a hypocrite, as to why he’s preaching about Jesus when he was up close and personal with him, and yet, still didn’t follow him. What else would it really take for someone to love Jesus? Unless he completely repented, he would still feel wordly guilt every day, while reaching out…

However… We all actually put Jesus on the cross. Jesus died for the people like Judas too… He didn’t come/die to help the “good people” (of which there are none). He came to save the halpless sinners, just like you and I– the people who can’t help but to sin even when we want to do good.

Satan entered Judas that night. But he also allowed Satan to control him. Things just had to happen that way, or we wouldn’t be who we are today. We would not have stood a chance at heaven on our own. It was still God’s plan. Judas did still have a chance to repent, however. Unfortunately, he chose the wordly sorrow route and hung himself. But I’m sure God would still had compassion on him, even after he did it (if he truly repented). Jesus even called Judas his friend during all of this.

Jesus would have forgiven Judas… If only he would have forgiven himself.

Jesus died for everyone.

15 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. 16 But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.

– 1Ti 1:15-16

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Rukii Anatomy practice (sketch)

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I’m so sad that I lost my usual anatomy book… every source pic I find seems to give me differences in details, and arrgghh!!! x’D
(Why’s he so mad? That’s just his usual expression XD)

Also on DA

Submitting to companies, vs. submitting on the web/self-publishing

Here’s a sketchy-sketch!

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This is Robin (top-left character). He is from the same story as Karina (who I drew before— on the bottom-right). Working on this story now… it’s getting longer than I thought, lol.

You know, in submitting to companies and such (as opposed to only posting on the web or self-publishing), I’ve learned that it’s much harder (yet easier) to organize and draw out your comics.

Reasons Why It’s Harder: Because you have to abide by a pages in increments of eight (usually). If, once drawn out, your story is 35 pages, when you told them it’d be 40, well, you have to add those five pages in somewhere! If you’re two pages over, you have to take those two pages out somewhere! Therefore, it’s best to organize all of that stuff in the script-writing process– before you even fully flesh out your comic. Otherwise, I hope you like re-drawing, or taking out an awesome scene of dialogue because of a simple mistake or miscount! (This has happened to me before… and recently too, lol. So, that’s why I’m saying this.) I’ve learned the value of writing out stories in the ‘official’ comic book format of scriptwriting (where it lists pages and panel numbers). Makes it much easier in the long run. But I don’t know how efficient it is to do it initially, when you’re writing your first draft, etc… For me (for now), it’s easier to write everything out, and then figure out how many pages it will be BEFORE I submit it to any companies. Maybe it is not the most professional method, but as of right now, it’s what works for me.

Reasons Why It’s Easier: Having limitations can be incredibly inspiring, because being forced to work within boundaries causes your mind to explore all of the possibilities within those ‘boxes’ of creativity. For example, it is sometimes hard to decide on something if you have a million different choices to choose from. But, if you have about 10 (vs. a million), it’s much, much easier to decide. Also, the more solid of an idea that your world is in your mind, the easier it is to fathom stories and characters for it. Solidifying your world is what makes storytelling (in general) easiest for me. This could be the reason why fanfiction/fancomics can be much easier than original works sometime– because their worlds are already very “solid” in your mind about what can and cannot happen within them. This is the difference between a plan and a wish.

“A goal without a plan is just a wish.” ~Antoine de Saint-Exupery (Also..)

“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” ~Hebrews 11:1

Movie writers and probs every other kind of writer has to work within the publisher’s limitations, too. However, if we have to edit, rewrite, and be able to work within such constraints, and STILL have a great story, well, that just means you’re a really great writer, regardless of the circumstances!

But, if you don’t fully believe in your world, how do you expect someone else to? It has to feel real to you– not just a fuzzy idea or a hypothetical situation. Give it real dimension, real emotion and real problems and solutions. In order for people to connect with your characters, they have to feel they are real (enough) to them, first. I’m still trying to do my best at doing this too; this is just something I wanted to say as a reminder for myself, as well. (After all, when we point the finger at someone, we are also pointing at ourselves, methinks.)

In other random news:

Psalm 7:15 “Whoever digs a hole and scoops it out falls into the pit they have made.”

This always reminds me of Team Rocket. Always.